I doubt anyone will see this, but I decided to create my own personal blog for, well, personal use. After a very recent situation, I felt compelled to write it out. As a PR major, sometimes writing is the best way for me to explain things.
While I won't go into detail, I realize more and more how important truth is. As a Christian, I value to know God's Word and His truth. I strive to live truthfully through Him. I try to live in accordance with His will, and not my own. And while I want nothing more than to live for Him, it's not always easy. In fact, living for Christ is really hard in this world crazy, sick, twisted and evil world we live in. Not to mention, we are human. We are sinful human beings who have our own lustful desires, wishes and wants. Sometimes, those desires, wishes and wants can get in the way of what GOD wants in our life. It should be so easy for us, but it's not.
Again, not going into detail, I was facing a situation right now that would far less complicated and hurtful if more truth was expressed at the beginning. What happened was, I was too concerned with what the other person would think, and I was being selfish in many ways. But God confirmed to me several times what I needed to do. So, I had to do one of the hardest things I have done in my life. And while things are being settled, I realize now that I should have waited on God more instead on rushing my own will, and I should have been more honest instead of keeping more thoughts to myself. When God humbles us, He really humbles us. But I am so thankful that He does. My pastor always says, "I'd rather be cursed of God than blessed by the Devil." I couldn't agree with that statement more. I know I am so unworthy, and I feel like I have completely failed God. But I am thankful for His abounding grace....regardless of the consequences I have to face.
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